1.never without language

This is how my mind works..

in words. 

It (attempts to) makes sense of the nonsensical because this is how I create safety in relationship to my experiences, my environments, and my acute and chronic oscillation between what we call "reality" and another dimension of consciousness I frequent that can only be described as the energetic equivalent of standing naked under Niagara Falls. But really, it would be like floating in the center of the falls, no earth beneath you, just energy exploding in every direction at once. 

Sometimes Im so worried about my writing being clear, that I Lose the magic of writing. I am not submitting a collegiate disposition. I am just a little high and typing out a stream of consciousness as my puppy, Waffles barks at the glass in my kitchen. 

I also use language to help other people feel safe. 

especially if they are, or have, pilgrimaged to the depths of the self and discovered the Falls for themselves. Or the spray at the very least. These kisses from God are sure to stun you even when they are as delicate as the lighting bugs on a warm summer night. 

I use the words to help conceptualize what just happened, in ceremony, in breath work, in a moment of eye contact...

The nervous system!
the workings of the mind...
the energy field...

I take all the magic out of it because I don't want you to reject it before you have a chance to integrate it.

{What the fuck?? Why do I do that? why have I bestowed this outlandish burden and responsibility on myself? what a dick move.}

I am so overwhelmed and uncomfortable with the archetype I am creating and becoming. I don't want to teach of spiritual things. I want to show you how to find the spiritual things in your own body and then support you as you integrate the profundity of your findings. 

The collective is exhausted by people telling others who is
god.
God.  
"GOD"

So, I curate experiences, ceremonies, mini and lengthy journeys using all my wisdom, all my learnings, the archetypes of my teachers, my entire heart and soul, my actual physical body, a few helpful plants, guided by my intuition and in connection and absolute devotion to the Creator, God, Source, the Beloved. 

I show people the path inside their own body, to the eternal well of wisdom and goodness that lives within. The kingdom is inside you.

When we work together, in consent and individual sovereignty, to find and explore this open space in a deeply relaxed and surrendered body, it seems that every single cell in my body bursts and love literally comes seeping out of me in all directions. 

I used to not be able to control this.
I have somewhat of a grasp on it now. 

I am on this planet to Love. 

Like literally, I'm on this planet to burst in an explosion of love, of sorts. It can be a little violent or bizarre looking, to be honest. Strange sounds sometimes sneak out too..

but inside, wow.

Inside my body is an experience that no language can or ever will be able to describe. A sensation like no other that brings you to the very edge of self to find the thread of truth woven throughout existence. You, an intimate and delicate part of the tapestry being woven with every breath you take.  

I use words to create safety. 

My heart is that in the creation of safety, you and your nervous system can learn the art of true surrender, and the life-changing, reality-shattering, mind-expanding, soul-bursting experiences that blow through the safety and surrender in your nervous system. The spiritual things. 

I am here to teach safety. 
I am here to teach of the nervous system role's in our ability to access spiritual, mystical or supernatural phenomenon. 
I am here to teach of integrating the wisdom from these phenoms in order to heal the collective and shift the trajectory of humankind on the planet, Mother Earth. 

The spiritual landscape is yours to explore. 
But I would be so overwhelmingly grateful to hear what you find.

For when my whole being bursts into an explosion of light. color and love energy, there is nothing on this planet that is more real. I want this so badly for every single human being to know for themself.

In order to create something that has never been created, we must draw wisdom from states of consciousness we have not yet explored as a collective. 

Smoke weed with me
Sit still next to me
& breathe deeply into your gorgeous, magical lungs. 

Feel everything. 

I love you. 
Don't forget.